my name is Amkele Ntuli, I have ADHD but doctors aren't helping with the right medication and way forward. I'm on a 3 months probation period now I've been having melt downs and not being able to work so I cant loose this job I will commit suicide please help
Me and my girl have been having problems, our relationship has been on and off because I have hurt her in the past and I seem to repeat the same mistakes. I don’t do it intentionally and I have been trying to change but it seems no good because we keep coming back to the same place. I want to be better for her because I really love this girl and I can’t imagine a life without her. It’s hurts and even as a type this message I’m fighting back tears. I want to change I want to be better for her. Please help me because I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I hate myself and I’m scared I might end up doing something bad to myself, I can’t even stand the sight of myself in the mirror. We are both still students finishing school.
We are not Relating well with our son. Only time he is talking to us is when He s accusing Us whole family of so many things imaginable, can come from His Family. He had -CLOSED-Up to ANY voice that move him to his conclusions. When we try make Him aware that-'All He is ACCUSING us of 'cannot come from us ,His family ,it ends in -NEVER -ENDING -ARGUMENT.
I am dealing with PTSD from my entire life falling apart due to toxic business partners, health deteriorated leaving me fighting for my life in hospital, I am now deeply unhappy, cannot seem to shift my mindset to move forward, I am finding myself getting obsessively attached to people where it becomes toxic due to severe loneliness and broken self confidence, I have been having dark thoughts about causing harm to myself and even death, I have not acted on it, but it concerns me. I have no family or friend support. I need help.
We been together for 10years we have a Son of 6years old. We have been staying together for 6years and then my farther bought a plot and asked me to stay there our relationship changed because of this and also my partner was drinking too much whereby I am an occasional drinker he will drink anytime any day. I moved back after 2years and things was just out of hand I could not handle it any more so I left to stay with a friend for few days and thereafter decide to go stay at my granny's house where I grew up. I am there now, but my partner decides to change his life becoming a born again, however ever since our relationship has been the best and we would like to take it to the next level.
Seeing Clinical psychologist and have been to 2 psychiatric, I am not happy with the service and thus would like a second opinion re psychiatrist and the medication I was put on. Seeing my clinical psychologist on a weekly basis, since September to date. First appointment with the psychiatrist was on the 18th of December , follow up was on the 5th of March . I am still not happy and thus seeing a second opinion. Was referred to Dr by Prof Joanna Botha, one of my University Professors who forwarded Dr’s details and gave consent to use Prof’s name and surname as a point/person of reference. Diagnosis: sever depression, anxiety, OCD and ADHD. I am on Exlov mg, Rivotril 0.5 (2 at night) 1/2 in the morning, Concerta 54mg 1 morning and 36mg one afternoon; and im also on Dormicum 7mg 1 at night. Suicidal thoughts, wanted to commit suicide last year; it’s been coming back. I also suffer from panic attacks.